This time it is a lot harder for her because her lymphodaema has caused her arm and hand to swell and hurt, and her shoulder is giving her problems. Recently her leg has become problematic as well. I wish I could take it away from her . . . it hurts me so much to see her suffer like that. I love her so very much, I have always done so and always will - we have been together for 36 years which is a long, long time.
I cannot help thinking back to Biblical times when I am sure Jesus cured these problems regularly. I ask you to pray for my wife and I ask my Lord for a cure her if it is in accordance with His will.
Miracles still happen today, sometimes through prayer.
Many will know, I am a strong Christian, with very devout beliefs - indeed I have met many blogging friends with similar intense beliefs. It is almost as if this is by design rather than coincidence and I am certain in time the ramifications of all this will become evident of just why so many have been 'put together' so to speak.
I know some readers will be amazed at this statement, including perhaps someone or persons outside the blogging community whom I have wronged of late and to whom I convey my unreserved and sincere apologies.
On the subject of Faith I am reminded of a conversation I had with my dear cousin Roden, sadly no longer with us. He was an atheist, a strong one. You might say he was an evangelical atheist. He shouted it from the roof tops. Intellectually he was on a much higher plateau than I could ever aspire to.
Roden was light years ahead of me. So I knew he could make mince meat of me if we ever discussed this subject, knowing I had strong Christian beliefs. The contest did begin one day and I was well and truly on the ropes.
I said two things to him.I said, "You believe that when we die it is curtains, the lights go out and that is it - eternal unawareness of anything. I believe I have a distinct advantage in my argument because I believe death is a door to a much better life. If I am right I shall be in the unique position of being able to say, 'I told you so', If you are right you won't say it and I won't hear you."
The second thing I said was, "If we are lucky we might live until we are 70 or if we have all our faculties 80 or 90 or even 100. Then you say that's it - eternal nothing!" For a Christian we have the hope of eternal life in perfect happiness for ever and for ever! All we have to do is to chose Jesus. In my book there is absolutely no contest - what's a 100 years of ordinary life against an eternity of bliss - I just don't get it why so many reject."
Anyway, sadly Roden remained with his atheist viewpoint until he died 8 years ago.
He was a nice man, and cousin whom I admired and respected and looked up to yet unfortunately he just could not be a little child again and accept his Saviour. I just hope and pray I see him again on day, and if I do I shall not say, "I told you so". I am not a chap to do that sort of thing.
It is two weeks since I left the Ambulance Service and I have been a busy lad with decorating a couple of bedrooms. Even with this awful hip I am having to cope with I am managing to climb up ladders to paint and decorate - something I have always enjoyed. Indeed some may know I did this professionally for 15 years before I undertook ambulance work.
I will keep you posted about the hospital visit and thank you in advance for your prayers - I know some of my email Christian friends are supporting us and I thank you so much for this.